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{Thursday, November 02, 2006 @ 8:31 PM}
i realise what i post every time is about my the things ive done and stuff. and i realise, i never really express what im really felt all this while. cus i have my own online blog which is a personal. which i expressed my sorrows and affections. i kept everything to myself that i pretend to be so happy everyday. its drives crazy sometimes that i will write those in words in diaries. cus i know, if i even tell a person, what can that person be done with it? i know i dont need a therapist, cus i believe, i am my therapist. feeling so blue, i will think about others who is much sad then i am. like those orphanage. they never enjoy like some of us.
suddenly today, i think about life alot. i think about everybody making sins everyday and wonder why they kept repeating it without thinking? wonder whats the after world will be. i dont know why im feeling so blue.
let me share for you what i kinda wrote
imaginary, please let me stay! the place where the wind will whisper to me where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story.
They will tell the story in a place of mine. which is in my field of paper flowers and candy clouds of lullaby. where i can lie inside for hours. and watch my purple sky fly over me.
has no one told you she screaming? swallowed up in the sound of my screaming cannot cease for the fear os my silent nights. ohh..how i long for a deep sleep dreaming..which is the goddess of imaginary lights.
if i smile and dont believe, soon i know i'll wake up from this dream. dont try to fix me cause im noe broken! hello! im the lie living behind so you can hide. don't hide, don't cry.
suddenly i know im not sleeping. im still here. all that is just the left over of yesterday...
-mai sarah
